MY BEAUTIFUL WINGED CREATURE

An angel's wings formed in the sky.

“Parting is such sweet sorrow that I shall say goodnight till it be tomorrow.”

What is the most painful experience you had in your entire life? I haven’t lived long enough in this world but I had my most painful experience.

First let us define pain: unpleasant sensation, feeling of discomfort, emotional distress, grief, anguish.

In life you have to be sure of everything that you decide for so that in the end when you fail and get hurt, you will not regret.

But I want to talk about the pain I had experienced. Was it death? A bite? A rejection? A disease? A scolding? An insult?

My story begins by describing the angel I met seven years ago.

Unlike any other child with the same age as mine, I neither believe in angels nor on heavens. I only believe on the clouds I see up in the sky, on the birds I hear chirping during our afternoon plays on the garden. In short, I believe only on the things I see, hear and smell.

One day, I met someone who seems to be shining and glowing. It has beautiful grey wings covered with radiating feathers with tiny crystals on its edges. Its smile seems to transpire an image of bliss. The feeling I felt after witnessing that magnificent image evoked a feeling of fervor and desire to approach.

I walked towards the glazing image and to my childish curiosity I touched the stunning wings, the winged creature talked to me. It told me that in return of touching the beautiful wings, I must help it on fulfilling its purpose on earth. I wanted to spend more time looking at the magnificent image and so I agreed on it.

I explained to the winged creature that unlike any other human beings, I have limitations since I am still a child. I do not have the capacity to do things that require a lot of thinking, logical reasoning and physical endurance. The winged creature replied that its mission on earth is simple; prove to its Superior that something exists in this world which can make its beautiful wing turn white. With that, I proudly told it that although it may take a while, I can still make that possible. The winged creature flash a smile which thawed my young heart and made my innocence on things which cannot be felt by the physical senses vanished.

For years, the winged creature stayed by my side all the time. It served as something which I never believed in before – my guardian angel. I grew up with the presence of this beautiful creature that has magnificent glowing wings. I enjoyed doing everything with it, I spent my free time playing with that winged creature.

Days gone by and I can see from its weary eyes a heavy burden inside. The winged creature showed to me its wings. Now, it has only a small portion of grey feathers. I was puzzled for that image should have made the beautiful winged creature happy. Then I realized slowly that it is a prelude to a sad goodbye. A tear fell from my eyes; the winged creature held my hand and put me into its arms. I felt by its touch that it also does not want to go but for a very important reason, it has to.

We spent our days playing all the time, enjoying each others presence. At a young age I thought myself how to bake and cook and offered my baked cookies to the beautiful winged creature. In return, the winged creature would always stay beside me singing songs they usually sing up there on the place where the winged creature described as a blissful place with nothing to worry about. Every time it talked about that place, I could see from its eyes how happy it is to be living there. The winged creature would always sit beside my bed before I go to sleep and read me some stories which had always fascinated me. It would talk about dragons, the rose on the moon, and many other things which I never believed in before.

My life has changes since that winged creature walked into my life.

Then, the day came when its magnificent wings turned all white. I cannot understand how I felt when I saw its radiating white wings. Should I be happy or should I be sad?

The winged creature hugged me and bid goodbye. I cried hard and began to sob. Why? Why does it have to leave me? Now that I have began living a life with its presence!
It just kissed me on the forehead and smiled.

I was out of words for my tears are overflowing. I told the winged creature that when it came I began to believe on things which I never thought to exist before. I cannot even remember all the words I poured out, the only thing in my mind is to make that magnificent winged creature stay.

It did not utter anything at all. The winged creature waved and when it was already flying above me, it shouted: “Your love and care for me turned the color of my wings white. I may have lost the crystals on the corners of my grey wings before but still I am grateful! You love me, and I know that we both know that I love you too! At the right time, we will see each other. I do not know when but I promise I will be with you again. And by that time, I will never leave.”

And so, that’s it. The angel went away carrying with it, my life and my love. I should have done something to make it stay but there are really things in life which cannot be changed no matter how hard we try to. Until this day, as I am narrating this most painful experience I had in my life I am waiting patiently and looking up to the sky, thinking that eventually, a beautiful winged creature with a magnificent white wings would come down for me.